Moonshine

…I want to know where you are so I may know where to go…those were the only words that I pretended clothe my reasons and have them guide the solitary steps of my feet; and without having realized I had reached that point. I had come to proverbial crossroad in life, the one you stand on the edge of. On one side you see the water that runs smooth and sometimes tumultuous and violent and on the other a slightly perceptible and unknown road, aimless, with multiple textures and movements.

I feel my frozen feet and the torrent of water splashes on me, it stirs my fears and dampens the wounds suffered along the way. It is easy to submerge oneself in it and to fuse with its molecules. However, the dying light of the road steals me away from the hypnotizing coming and going of the stream.

This road is as lonely as the void that has nested in my eyes but the light that pierces it comes from the moon above, a lost flash of the pure and unknown enigma that implies the whole spirit of celestial body.

…and in a delicate whisper, nameless, it makes me walk…one…two…three..four steps to soothe me under the warmth of its magic so as to allow me to perceive the totality of my senses. In celestial worship every pore of my skin breathes on its own, every cell and drop of blood move in complete harmony until they have reached the infinite and unknown space of the universe. I don’t need any sort of clothes to feel protected but the climax of this supreme freedom and beauty is temporary and once again leaves this lonely road in darkness and earthly uncertainty…

I’m not too far. I can still run and dive into the water but my soul yearns for that moon beam that keeps my hopes alive and I know that if I stay I will be withering away the body that envelops my reason and my spirit would be so free that I can partake of its intensity. How many strings pull at my toes and hands and feet? Perhaps that is why I’m cold, because I have failed to visualize and desire the fire that shall consume me in a single breath, in an instant and in a flash…


J-Lopez (Dario Mariategui)


San Diego

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